Random Thoughts

I do not know why I am so high emotional lately. But it kills me slowly. It started since I have my bachelor degree and gone through almost a year in the hospital to get another degree behind my name. And I am counting days that two weeks later I am officially enough with all the stuff. I started to register myself to another company that is not linear with my  bachelor degree. It stressed me overload an think what it will be, will I be rejected because of my bachelor degree is not linear? Will it be rejected because they think will I have no idea if they approve me as their worker?

If I could go back to the time where I should choose my major, I could choose to have psychology or even accountancy. Having this nursing bachelor as mine sometimes burden me so much. Not because I do not love my major, but it such an un-describe- able. Where if I follow my truly degree it leads me to the hospital where I meet a lot of people. That is not the real problem which  I am afraid of. 

The problem is that where I will meet people who think that nurses is their assistant. The job of the nurses itself is really difficult to explain. Where taking care of the bath, taking care of their meal, taking care of their poop and pee is including to the nurses’ job description. I just cant handle it for more. It  burdens me till this time, where my fear caused me having trouble. Where my fear caused me confused on what company should I register again but not in the hospital. It depressed me sometimes, may be that is why I cant take control of my emotional lately. It burns me.